“My child, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments, for they will provide a long and full life, and they will add well-being to you. Do not let truth and mercy leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. then you will find favor and good understanding, in the sight of God and people.” Proverbs 3:1-4
Three years ago this month I experienced a turning point in my life. Situations had caused me to become bitter and angry at God and I blamed him for everything that had gone wrong in my life. I literally came to a point that I felt I was being given an ultimatum from the Lord…serve Him completely, 100%, with nothing held back or turn my back on Him and go the other way.
This hit me hard as I was raised in church and had never really “went off the deep end” as some had done. I felt I was always a “Christian” and would have gone to heaven if I died. His message to me during that season was “That’s not good enough.” So, I had a decision to make.
Years of disappointment after disappointment in ministry and people had brought me to a place of no longer knowing what I believed or who to believe when it came to church doctrine. I had served as a pastor’s wife in 3 different denominations and worked for 2 others. The different belief systems of those 5 groups covered a very wide expanse of “truth” and interpretation of the Word. So, which one, if any, of these groups were “right”?
I made the only decision I could when it comes to seeking truth….I put my face on the floor and committed to seek the Lord and the Word for truth. I asked Him to show me the genuine as opposed to the “fake” and “abuses” I had seen over the years. I opened my Bible and started reading, enduring condemnation from some who should have been supportive. Even so, I continued and prayed each day for God to show me the truths I knew He wanted me to see in each chapter and verse that I read. I attended services and sought Him around the altar, surrendering myself to Him and overcame preconceived ideas and skepticism.
Three years later I have come a long way but still have so much further to go. I have learned so much and look forward to sharing some of these things in the blogs to come. My encouragement to you today is this….start today to seek the truth by opening that Bible sitting on your shelf and begin with just a verse or a chapter. Ask the Lord what He wants you to see and then read each and every day. Some days you may feel like you didn’t get anything and on others you will find yourself reading for an hour or more but it only feels like minutes. I know one thing – when you seek truth in the Word you will NEVER be let down!